Delirium

The other day I was reading about phantom pain.
Have you ever heard about it?
Its a pain in an organ or a limb that does not exist.
Sharp, intolerable pain.
Painkillers are required to manage it.
Some of us need low dose of electric shocks!
Anti-depressants and sleeping pills are prescribed too, says another journal.
What do these medicines actually help you forget?
That you have a pain?
Or they help you remember that you don't have the limb anymore?
You can not have the pain in a body part that does not exist!
It is gone!
Is it its last ditch attempt at being alive?
Why doesn't the pain sleep?

A friend once told me, women who undergo abortion,
Many a times remember the abortion date and every other detail attached to it.
She said, they also remember a probable date of birth of the child,
And often think how old they would have been, had they been given birth.
This is so even when they decide to undergo the abortion, themselves.
When they knew that was the right thing to do,
Given the age or the circumstances or the relationship.... or the lack of it!
They cant stop thinking about how it would have been.
My friend said, their partners often find this strange!
For they supported these women's decision to abort. Then why this mourning?
Why this relentless stream of memories, of the memories that never formed?
Is that ghost mourning then?
Why don't these memories fall asleep?

They keep me awake many a nights!
Phantom pains and ghost mourning ....
I remember things that should have been long forgotten.
Instead they fill my nights. Is it their last ditch effort to remain alive?
They don't mean anything, anymore! 
I even wonder why they meant so much to me!

Why don't they sleep?
My head can then go silent. It is never silent.
Its much alike my street in all hours of the night....
Why doesn't my street sleep?
Why doesn't it let me sleep?

Insomnia! Is that what they suffer from?