The vanishing act

As a young girl I really wanted to learn the vanishing act!

I liked to think some day nobody will find me ever again. 

Nowhere!
I wanted to test whether my parents would be anxious for me.
I wanted to see whether my sister would stop eating.
But my wish could not be fulfilled!

It was not only about disappearance, right?
I had to be there somehow to witness 

All the things that could  happen in my absence.
The only recourse was the vanishing act!
And I was sure I could master it, somehow!

Some day!

"May be the secret of the vanishing act was some kind of a potion", I thought.
And of course, acted on that thought.
I mixed a popular antiseptic liquid in salt water
And added some broken egg shells for the effect...
I only ended up spending a few days in the hospital.
Parents did not cry...

They were angry!

And I was shared.

Playing in the beach during summer holidays,
I used to dig up the sand
and then go in and meticulously started covering myself feet upwards
bit by bit by bit...
I wished a miraculous knowledge would dawn upon me
And while covering every inch, every part of my body
I will find a way to cover my eyes and still see through the mist of sand.
But that did not happen.

I could run away from home,  I had thought about it.
I actually planned it in great details.
I even acquired a big bunch of incense sticks that I could sell for a living.
I calculated if they are sold per piece, I could live on my own for 2 full days!
But then it would not have been possible to see what was happening back home!
I had to abandon the project.

I came closest to vanishing, by climbing the overhead bunker at home one day!
I was looked for and not found the entire morning.
And I could see it all.
They just did not look up.

They did not think I could climb up.
I jumped from my hideout after some time to surprise them all.
I feared if I stayed any longer, returning to real world would not be possible

Without experiencing some real pain.

My fear came true though..

My mother made sure that
I felt it on my body; how she felt in her heart!

Or that was what I was told at least. 
That was the closest I got to vanishing!

It is only later, 

After many years, 
I learnt that every human being can vanish.
Every one actually know the vanishing act.
From the very first day. 
It is a talent that they are born with.
They appear and disappear at their own will.

Bodies have nothing to do with it.

And I? 

I can do that too.